Pause

It’s been a while since I sat down and wrote. This morning, I drew one of my angel cards and it said “Pause – you’ve been doing too much lately and you need to slow down.” I got annoyed.

How can I pause? I’ve taken it easy ever since I moved back to Switzerland. The pace here is already slower and on top of that, I’ve been taking it one day at a time accomplishing each day maybe one task off of my long to-do list. And one task is on a good day.

But then a little voice inside my head said “look closer at what you’ve done” and suddently it hit me: Bumble bee has been in full action. Who am I kidding?

If I summarize my life since I last wrote, which was on February 11th – brace yourself – I’ve moved along. A few days after that last post, I was back in Miami. I stayed there a month. Just enough time to get a bunch of degrees in coaching: life coaching, business coaching, weight loss coaching and social emotional intelligence coaching. I also was attuned to Reiki, which basically enables me to open a practice should I choose to. I spent some time with my friends there and hopped on the plane back to Switzerland.

I stayed there a few days and flew with a friend to Lisbon for a long weekend. It was not quite your relaxing weekend. We visited the city from morning to night and both my friend and I were going to some transition time, so we spent a lot of time talking or in deep thought.

I came home from Lisbon in awe from that city. I loved the way it stayed authentic, almost untouched by major hotel, restaurant and shopping chains. Life there seemed modest and simple. Besides the awe, I was also in a state of panic. What next? Where do I start? Job? Apartment? New business? What did I get myself into?

That’s when I got the “Pause” card for the first time. Now I get it periodically or other similar cards such as “Retreat” and “Slow down”. I do get the message. I do. Now, how do I do that?

It seems that no matter what I get myself into, I end up spinning myself in circle until I and everyone around me gets dizzy. I clearly saw that look of dizziness when I told my mom this morning that I was thinking about visiting my friend in Israel…
And then I pulled that “Pause” card. But my friend talked about going to Petra, Jordan to see the temple from Indiana Jones and to Egypt to see the pyramids! How often do you get an opportunity like that? I always wanted to see the pyramids!

Did I misunderstand the card "Pause"? Should I pause the set-up of my business and check out the pyramids instead? ...